Thursday, September 16, 2010
Shamans, space shuttles and airplanes
So here we go. Enter Sudama. The first thing that struck me about this very kind, genteel soul of a man was his towering presence. He presented like a 7 ft NBA player, only with sandals instead of high tops and he was carrying a CD of groovy music that he had just produced. "Green Evolution" was the name of the CD. You get the picture I am sure. Finbar with all his honesty bluntly stated "Hello, why are you so tall?" Amazingly, he did not have much more interaction with Finbar than this for the next 2 hours. But he had surprisingly a lot to say about Finbar. I will summarize. He got the "message" as he read Finbar's energy that brought to mind the phrase "space shuttle pilot". Then he preceded to relate and try to decipher the reading he was getting about Finbar's past life. You see, it seems Finbar had been smashed to smithereens in his most recent past life death and his soul is still traumatized by that death. This would explain why he only lives sometimes in "our world" and gels with his extreme desire to become a paraglider when he grows up. And apparently Finbar saw his death coming. Sudama likened it to a WW2 pilot, perhaps shot down and fell to earth, all the while aware of what was going to happen. Trauma. Sudama related that Finbar had a strong "relationship" with gravity and the earth. Again, perhaps due to his previous death, which was probably falling to earth. Sudama knew nothing of Finbar at this point. He did not know of his constant chatter about flying, becoming a paraglider when he grew up, his desire to learn to paraglide and hanglide as soon as he could, nor the fact that he talked about gravity like it was a person and called it "his friend gravity". He didn't know that we had figured out that flying in outward moving circles very fast was actually calming to Finbar. That he could ride those huge swings at the carnivals over and over and never get sick.
The interesting thing was, when Sudama left I thought, "shit, why not past life trauma? In fact it isn't autism, it is trauma from a previous life. We just have to get on with life and wait for him to get over it, poor little guy". Funnily enough, that was a much easier story to accept than autism. Hmm. A week later, Finbar decided to check out umpteem books on the space shuttle from the library. Hmmm. Strange. Is he telepathic I thought? We came to a page in one book that talked about the tiles on the outside of the shuttle. Finbar pointedly asked what happens when the tiles fall off. How did he think of that? I wondered. Then as I was relating to him what happened to the Challenger several years ago, I was overwhelmed with the feeling, really knocked over the head with the idea that perhaps he had been on that shuttle. "Space shuttle pilot" Sudama had said. "smashed to the smallest pieces of the human body possible". "Relationship to gravity". "Saw it coming". "Past life was recent". I gave Finney a big big hug. I felt sorry for him in that moment. Maybe it was him in the Challenger that fateful day. Maybe he has autism. Which story would I choose to believe?
Well, it just so happens that Finbar's love affair with all things flying and fast continues and has reared its head lately. The latest story is that he will be an airplane pilot and will take flying lessons as soon as he can read and do math. So maybe it was the WW2 pilot I think....which story will I believe? And how did I ever get to a place where I give sincere thought to the question "did my son have a past life?"